face your fear

Tahun 2010 kemarin menjadi tahun yang cukup menyenangkan buat gw. Karena gw berhasil mendapatkan beberapa hal sesuai dengan apa yang gw inginkan. I tried quite hard and I also think that maybe luck was with me for most of the year. Hehehehhe. But one thing that is so memorable from 2010 was when I tried to face my fear. i actually easily get bored and love to challenge myself. So I always look for something new in my life. but when we are about to do something new, it is very normal if you feel scared of it. And it happens to me too, like all the time. When I did my minor thesis hearing, my first job interview, my first day of work, my second job interview in a fancy law office, my first time drove a car, and the most memorable was when I asked the guy that I liked to go to the cinema.

One day, after office hour, I had this idea of asking him to watch movie. I was really confused and really scared. What if he didn’t wanna go with me?what if he assume that I like him?what if he pull away himself from me?all the negative thoughts were running in my mind. But also this one positive thought. He might be interested with my invitation. Well, I’m just asking to go watch movie, there’s nothing wrong with asking someone to go watch movie. He might say yes. I should go try. And then I prayed to God. Sebelum gw smsin, gw baca-baca surat Al-Fatihah, Ayat Kursi, An-nas berulang-ulang. Gw mau smsin orang kaya abis ketemu setan ya?dan akhirnya kekirim lah itu sms. Jantung gw beneran kaya mau copot deh. Setelah nunggu kira-kira setengah jam, dia membalaaaaaas. Aaaaaaa. Sebelom baca SMS pun gw baca doa dulu, deg-degan setengah mati gwwww. Dan akhirnya, dia menolak ajakan gw.

Tapi anehnya gw ngga merasa sedih dan kesel, gw Cuma merasa lega dan seneng aja gitu. Karena gw sudah melakukan sesuatu yang sangat gw takuti.

When we try to do something that we fear, we actually will feel proud of ourselves. No matter what the result would be, you will feel happy. Because you successfully beat your fear.

Sebenernya yang paling berat untuk dihadapi itu adalah rasa takut, rasa malas, dan diri kita sendiri. kadang musuh terbesar kita ya diri kita sendiri. we sometimes doubt ourselves. It happens all the time for me. I always doubt myself. I fear of everything. otak sama hati itu ngga pernah akur. Ketika gw baca tweet nya Sandiaga Uno yang bilang “anda berani gagal?” otak sama hati gw langsung saut-sautan kaya anjing kucing.

Somewhere in Twitterland.
@sandiuno “berani gagal?”

Otak : “ya ngga lah, gile aja lo”
Hati : “but you have those dreams waiting to be came true, and you are the one who have to make it happen”
Otak : “tapi kalo ngga kesampean gimana?gw ngga mau mempertaruhkan apa yang udah gw dapet selama ini, kalo gw gagal, gw punya apa?”
Hati : “then stay there forever, jerk!!”

Eh ngomong-ngomong hati gw ngomong pake bahasa Inggris mulu ya?hahahahha *abaikan* *ngga penting*

Jadi, itu dia kita harus menghadapi rasa takut kita sendiri. dan ketika gw merasa takut untuk memulai sesuatu yang baru, I spell this Mantra…

“you never know unless you try, Car. Face your fear. face your fear. face your fear”

And of course a pray to God

“ya Tuhan, tolong hilangkan segala ketakutan dalam diri saya, dan tolong peliharalah rasa takut saya hanya kepadaMu”

Doa itu gw ucapkan ketika gw pertama kali disuruh meeting. That pray makes me feel powerful.

And I do hope you will have no more doubt to chase your dream and ready to face your fear.

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2 thoughts on “face your fear

  1. Really?o my God, i feel so flattered because though you just started to write a blog, but I like your writing and your blog post which was tweeted by Renne, really inspired me. so I feel honoured that you read my blog and liking it. Thanks 🙂 . Anw, Have a good day and keep writing. 🙂

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